â€œThere is a saying in my language: â€˜In the forest, there is everything- water and mountains.â€™ It means that there is a good and a bad side in every human.
The other day I wanted to shake hands with a guard in my refugee camp as a sign of friendliness and peace. I have seen bad things in life and wanted to leave them behind. But the guard wouldnâ€™t take my hand and just said: â€˜Why should I?â€™ So I just wished him a good night and walked away.
My father taught me one thing when I was 9 years old: Never cause pain for another human. Doing so is a big mistake and God will never forgive you. Love humankind and never fight.
Five years ago, my father died of a heart attack because of the bad situation in Pakistan and all the tension. But I am still trying to be a good son. His wishes and thoughts are mine now. I want to see every human happy, whether they are my friend or somebody else. I donâ€™t care what religion somebody has, because we are all human. I hate it when people are shouting and fighting in the refugee camp. I try to be honest to everybody. I am trying my best, because Austria is a really lovely place.
I have been a refugee for almost my whole life. We went from Afghanistan to Pakistan when I was two and we were unable to get permission to get a proper education or to rent a house. My dream is to be a doctor, but I was never able to do what I am truly passionate about. I had a job in a shop at a bazar, but I had to stop working because I received multiple death threats and donâ€™t even know why. My mum said that she couldnâ€™t bear it if I was killed in front of her eyes. That is why I left.
Ever since I went away, I havenâ€™t been able to stop thinking about my mother, my little sister and my little brother. My mother has heart problems like my father. She had a heart attack when I got to Austria, but she has no money to get proper treatment. I donâ€™t know how my family can get food and protect themselves. I donâ€™t know how they can survive.
I canâ€™t forget them. Because of them, I am alive. Without them, I have nothing. Just a body, no soul, no feelings. When I see my mum again, it will the happiest moment of my life.â€